We are back in the ER this evening. Kaidence has started throwing up again today and not feeling the best. She refuses to eat and has only kept down 3 oz today. She has been sleeping a lot as well. The cardiologist sent us in because her labs from earlier showed that she was getting dehydrated. Her behavior comes in waves of looking very icky and sick to looking OK. This blood infection she has is very serious and they want to stay on top of things. Her doctors said that so many people have invested so much in Kaidence they said that they won't take any chances. They originally thought that Kaidence would be admitted right away, however it sounds like Kaidence may go home after getting some fluids. Mike gave her a blessing before leaving and I am so grateful for that. I think that I was on the verge of having a mental breakdown tonight. The thought of going back and doing this again was very depressing (mostly because I worry about the boys, I know it is hard on them. Also because I hate pawning them off on others,. Mike needs to work so he can keep his job, of course). However, when I do start to feel worn down, tired and frustrated I count my blessing and think of our dearest PICU friends that would give anything to be back in our shoes. It's all about perspective.
18 hours ago