GRATITUDE IN MY HEART!

I have felt once again very overwhelmed by how blessed we have been. We went up to cardiology today and all still looks well. We even get to move appointments to every other week now. Every time I go to the hospital I round the corner, see the big parking garage where my car would sit for a week at a time sometimes. I see the flag blowing and then I see Kaidence's PICU room window. I get so emotional every time and I can't tell you how many times I have made that drive. I remember once when Kaidence was in the hospital (just before the Berlin Heart) my mom took me away and tried to find me some hand stitching or something to do to keep me busy while time passed. I remember how torn I felt as I drove along the freeway and I looked east and could see the hospital sitting up on the hill and knowing that I could see my baby girls room but yet she was so far away from me.

We visited some of our PICU doctors and nurses today. I only expected to see a few nurses but before I knew it we had many others that had gathered around as well to see our little Kaidence. We miss them so much and I hope that they truly understand all that they did for our family and how grateful we are to them. It feels like home everytime we stop by to see them and never feels weird.

We have been so lucky to have so many wonderful friends and family that have supported us in so many ways. Although I could not get "Thank You's" to everyone it did not mean that your kindness did not touch our hearts. I was just so overwhelmed by Kaidence and all of the kindness that we had been shown. And no matter how hard I tried I just could not keep up and the Thank You's. So Thank You to all of you. Our family, friends, ward family, doctors, nurses, our pediatrician's office and all of you that we have never met. We are forever indebted to your kindness. Thank You to all of you that made sure our family had a wonderful Christmas to remember, it was that and so much more. Often as someone would drop something by I would close the door and just sit and sob. Thank You for all of the sacrifice that you made for our family. I have cried so much these last 10 months as people would send cards, prayers said, money would appear on our doorstep or in the mail. Christmas gifts appeared on our porch (ok, I am even crying as I write this). Rides were given to my children, meals brought in, laundry done, our house was roofed, walks were shoveled, kids babysat (sometimes overnight). Kaidence's Pediatrician and staff would come to the home to give shots and do check ups once we brought her home so that we did not have to take her out. We honestly could not have done it without all of you. Most importantly, Thank You for all of the prayers. We love you all and feel so overwhelmed and blessed to have learned the lessons that we have and to have had so many people loving and supporting our family. Please know that we are SO VERY Thankful for all you have done for us. WE LOVE YOU!!!