Tuesday, January 1, 2008

I LOVE HOLDING MY BABY!!!

Kaidence is so happy. Mike wasn't feeling that great and so he stayed home with the boys. I was able to spend the day with her today and we had such a great day. When I walked in and said "hi kaidence" her little face got the biggest smile across it. I would tickle her and she would giggle in a soft, raspy voice. We sat her in her stroller and she loved being out of bed. I even rocked her to sleep twice and I loved holding her so close to me. She is apparently doing well because they are no longer giving us her heart nurses. We will miss them so much, it makes me sad. I really learned to trust them and it made it easier to go home more often. The boys want Kaidence home. Camden keeps telling me that sissy is better and that Santa is going to bring her home. I can't wait for the first night home. Everybody keeps asking if I am scared. I figured it can't be worse than bringing her home on all 9 of the medications in August and that included 2 IV antibiotics and a PIC line, learning how to place a feeding tube and calculate calories and feeds and the 2 times a week doctor appts. That was all dropped on us at once and so I am hoping that I will at least feel a little more comfortable. I will just have to learn all new warning signs for rejection, brush up on my CPR and figure out a schedule and how to keep germs away with two little boys. YIKES! We are just so excited and we want Kaidence home when she is ready.
My thoughts have been with the family that gave us Kaidence's little heart. I think about them multiple times a day and wish they could know how grateful we are. I think we have to wait a year to write to them. I hope that they will be happy with their child's heart going to our little Kaidence. I don't want to disappoint them or let them down. They are always in our prayers.

We will work on getting more pictures on the blog. Tomorrow will tell us alot if she can get off of the cpap.

Please pray for little Alex. He has a big day tomorrow!
Thanks for all of your love!!!

8 comments:

Jack's Family said...

I am so happy! Give her a tight squeeze and kiss for me. It is amazing how the healing truly starts when a mother gets to hold her baby.
Congrats and here's to a new year!

Mike & Rebecca said...

I'm sitting here crying tears of joy for you,I remember how it feels to be able to hold them after surgery and so long of not. Cherish every minute of it.

Dixie said...

I'm so happy for you. Give her an extra hug for me. I am so proud of her, and her will to be a fighter. We are all so greatful to Heavenly Father for allowing all of us to share in the life of Kaidence. I will be ever greatful for the faith experiences I have had with Kaidence and the family. Love, Dixie

Kenny & Michele Kingsford Family said...

Holding your baby is the best medicine - for both of you! I'm so happy that she is doing so well! She's sure to have a happy new year with her new heart!

Michele

Darlene said...

Little Kaidence looks great! The pictures are wonderful. I am so glad she is doing so well and that you were able to rock her to sleep. What a comfort that is for you and for her. Have a great day!

Love, Darlene

Debbie said...

What a wonderful day for you and Kaidence. I bet it felt so good to hold her close to you and give her lots of hugs and kisses. Give her hugs from all of us. The best Christmas present is yet to come when you can take her home and celebrate a belated Christmas with her. We think of her donor family as well and pray that they are feeling peace and comfort. I love her new dress. Before long she will be wearing it and having more pictures taken. This has been an incredible journey and I am so grateful that we have been part of it. My Faith and Testimony have grown so much. Love to you all, Aunt Deb

Wendy said...

Happy New Year! I can only imagine how it felt to hold your sweet little Kaidence again. And it will certainly be good for healing her heart to be held. I am so excited for your next part of this journey - getting to go home. Thank you for sharing your miracle with us. Love you all!

Crys said...

Shauntelle, I am so happy to hear how wonderful Kaidence is doing! What a relief. I look forward to the day when we can meet and Noah and Kaidence can be friends. Our prayers are still with you. The first day home will come sooner than you think. Also, from what I have been told, you do not have to wait a year to write. I think you have to wait a year to request personal information or meet. But on that I'm not even sure. I just know you can write a letter as soon as you feel up to it. I am in the process of working mine out. It's difficult to express such tender personal feelings.

Much Love,
~Crystal aka Noah's Mommy
www.noahsadventure.com