MONDAY IS THE BIG DAY!!!

Kaidence is loving life. No more IV meds, breathing tubes or oxygen. All she has is a line in her chest to help so that we can draw her rejection medication levels when she goes home without her needing to be poked. She will go home on 15 medications so I may be pretty darn busy but that's ok. She looks great!

Monday is our big day (supposedly). Kaidence gets to go home. Can you believe it? We are so excited. We are so ready and at the same time so sad. I know that sounds crazy but most likely only those that have been in our shoes can understand this. Since July these people at the hospital have been our life. They have been there for us in our darkest hours. We are going to miss those relationships terribly. We have made so many friendships and these are the people that Kaidence knows. So many first for Kaidence have happened in the PICU including all 3 of her teeth. I also feel so sad and my heart aches for all of our friends that could not bring their babies home. Part of me feels guilty and yet I know that they would never want me to feel that way. I will celebrate these little angels everyday as I raise Kaidence. I will think of them and the lessons I have learned every time I look at Kaidence. I have cried all night as I have thought about our friends that we have met along the way. I want them to know that I love them and that they hold the most dearest place in my heart. I will never forget the time that we spent exhausted and worried as we talked over our little ones beds. I will never forget the spirit that could be felt in the unit as a little one returned home to our Heavenly Father. These lesson of life are forever in me. Thank You to those that have cried with me, laughed with me and worried with me. And now thank you to those that rejoice with me.