ROUGH NIGHT.

Today has been rough. Much rougher than any of us expected. How does a kiddo go to the opposite extreme so quickly? Honestly, it terrifies me.

The attempts for the PICC line in her arm failed. She came back to the CICU intubated. She has been miserable and has fought the breathing tube all night. That breaks my heart watching her coughing, crying and not being able to hear her. Tonight they placed a line in her groin and planned to extubate after. However, as I waited outside her room her heart rate and blood pressure severely dropped. As I could hear them rushing around for emergency medications I was told that Kaidence was seriously ill and that I should go and be by her bedside. Mike was on his way to the hospital after grabbing our stuff from the cabin. I buried my face into Kaidence and once again found myself pleading with Heavenly Father to let me keep my baby girl. I know that ECMO was briefly discussed. Kaidence's HR and BP have are looking better at this moment.

The biopsy came back and unfortunately Kaidence's rejection is with her antibodies. This is what we did NOT want. The plan was to start her blood on dialysis tomorrow, but because of tonight's episode they are starting tonight. In fact, in a few minutes. PLEASE PRAY for kaidence. This treatment could once again drop her BP and its already low.

For now I think that is all. I am exhausted and figure we still have a long night ahead of us. This brings back too many memories and emotions. I am scared, I am sad, I love my little girl.
Thank You all for loving Little Miss K!