Sunday, August 14, 2011

Our Weekend

We have spent the weekend at home cleaning to keep Kaidence germ free for the next few days or however long. I have stayed busy trying to keep my mind free from wandering to the "what if" part of it all. Today I have been sewing some masks for Kaidence to wear to the hospital since she has outgrown all the old ones. I made these ones pink of course.

Kaidence is doing well and has not had any fevers. She has done great with her shots. All she asks for is a cute bandaid and a sucker. Her appetite today has not been so great, but that's ok. Her heart rate is a little higher than normal but we cannot do anything about that until we take care of her white count. Energy level is great and she seems happy.

I try to find a blessing in all things. Sometimes it may seem a bit of a stretch to come up with something and other times I realize that its been starring me in the face the whole time. I just hadn't looked for it. I have been trying to find blessings from all this the last few days. Here is what stands out to me.

* Kaidence's appt was moved up 2 weeks. If that had not happened we NEVER would have known that she had no white count/immune system. Therefore, she would have spent the weekend camping at Heart Camp and swimming with a bunch of other kids. She would have gone to church (germ fest) as well. She would also have been starting preschool. All along taking the extremely high chance that she would pick up on something that could possibly kill her. We wouldn't even have known that there was a problem until it was too late. This could have been life threatening to her.

By thinking this way it helps me remember that Heavenly Father continues to watch over Kaidence. He loves her and has not forgotten her. The prayers have been felt. I still get nervous when I start thinking too much about things but for the most part I have found great peace. I have tried not to dwell on the unknown and my mind is staying calmer than I thought it would. I know this is because of all the prayers. I have NO DOUBT!

Tomorrow will be a big day for labs. Likely we will only get the white count back tomorrow and not the others. Whats a few more days of worry? I hope that things will settle on their own. I am hoping that this is all from something that won't have adverse consequences for Kaidence in the future. That her heart will stay strong and calm until the white count is resolved so that we can treat the rejection safely.

Thank You again for all your love and prayers. We will see what tomorrow will bring. Hugs to you all!


Anonymous said...

My love thoughts and prayers are with you. I am available if there is anything that I can help you with. Love to you all, Aunt Deb

Aimee Hardy said...

Way to find the positive. She is such a fighter. Lots of prayers for you and Kaidence.

Mimi said...

Thinking of you!! I hope levels are great tomorrow!!

Praying and praying and praying! You are so great! It does help when you think of the hidden blessings... I need to do that more!

Melynda said...

oh wow! Praying her WBC comes back up to normal. Days like this make you count ever blessing you can think of. Mariska has her Cath tomorrow to see if the rejection is stopped. Amazing what little fighters they are!