Thursday, October 25, 2007

Today has been a relaxing day. Kaidence played a little today and we gave her a pretty good scrub down. I even put her in some of her PJ's from home, it took some time to get them around everything but we did it. The boys are doing well and I miss being a mom to them. Maybe tomorrow I can sneak away for a while. I would love to shower in my very own shower. I still feel major anxiety whenever I think about the transplant. We are waiting and I am still having faith in my miracle and the blessings that see has been given. I see little improvements in Kaidence everyday but I don't know that it means as much to the Dr's as it does to myself. I continue to feel that the longer I am here and try to advocate for Kaidence the more crazy they think that I am. I am so tired of people telling me that Kaidence will never get better. Why can't they understand that miracles do happen and she could be one of them if it is the will of the Lord. They tell me this daily and the more they tell me the more my faith increases in miracles. I won't let them tear down my beliefs.

2 comments:

Mike & Rebecca said...

Shauntelle,
You really never know what your made of until the trials begin to manifest themselves in your life personally. I know that with each pasting minute,hour and day that passes, you must always remain strong for Kaidence and know that with all things the lord will bless you and the rest of your family for your faith.

Denise said...

I ran accross this and thought it was fitting with you comments from Thursday night.

This relates to James 1: 5-6
5 If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him. 6 But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed.

I does not take many words to ask the Lord for what we need; but we must ask in faith, confidence and trust. It will not do to have doubts in our minds when we call upon the Lord for a blessing. When a little child bows down in it's perfect simplicity and asks the Father for a blessing, the Father hears the voice, and will answer in blessings upon his head, because the child is innocent and asks in full trust and confidence.

You and Mike have asked in Faith and nothing wavering. Keep hanging on despite what others might think.

I pray today is a wonderful day and Kaidence's echo shows some improvement.

Love - Mom