Today has been a relaxing day. Kaidence played a little today and we gave her a pretty good scrub down. I even put her in some of her PJ's from home, it took some time to get them around everything but we did it. The boys are doing well and I miss being a mom to them. Maybe tomorrow I can sneak away for a while. I would love to shower in my very own shower. I still feel major anxiety whenever I think about the transplant. We are waiting and I am still having faith in my miracle and the blessings that see has been given. I see little improvements in Kaidence everyday but I don't know that it means as much to the Dr's as it does to myself. I continue to feel that the longer I am here and try to advocate for Kaidence the more crazy they think that I am. I am so tired of people telling me that Kaidence will never get better. Why can't they understand that miracles do happen and she could be one of them if it is the will of the Lord. They tell me this daily and the more they tell me the more my faith increases in miracles. I won't let them tear down my beliefs.